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Sophia's dream...

Last night I had a dream that you hated me,
I remember the bitterness of your words cutting through my consciousnus
I remember your brutal, cold touch,
And your eyes so distant even though you were right next to me.
Savagly twisting beneath my grip,
you wanted to end us.

I wanted to scream, cry out, hurt you, hurt myself, anything to make you stay.

bewildered.

what happened? what happened to us? to everything? to the secrets we had, to the endless
afternoons we spent talking in your room, to all the times you helped me when i wanted my world to end, to all the fucking affection and thoughts and attention i gave to you? what happened to all of that?

You fuck. Cold as the ice i hope you freeze in, hard as the stone i hope crushes you, so you can hurt, just like
you hurt me.
Evil, twisted, selfish bastard. You dont seem to realise how your slowly destroying me, tearing my soul up, piece by fucking pathetic peice. I hope you die, rot in hell, for doing this, leaving me alone here, the crying tragic cliche of the sad girl who took it to far, wanted to squeeze forever from a moment, who tried to force a soulmate from a bastard fuck, who wanted everything...

Then i awake.
and remember...
it's just a dream...

ahhhhh *runs away* please don't kill me!! it's really good!! you have a vivid imagination

Sof!!!!!

dont worry! i have the book and your floppy disk!!!
xXx