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Apr. 28th, 2005 11:39 amARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!AGHR!ARGH!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! MY DRAMA PRACTICAL EXAM IS A WEEK ON MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *runs and hides*
Christ, how did it come around so quickly? I am so dropping it next year, theres no way any subject should be worth so much bloody scary nervousness. It wouldn't be so bad if it was one performance to the examinor and a separate one for friends and family, like it was with the gcse pieces, but this time, we're performing to the examiner, families, friends, school govenors, drama teachers, upper sixth drama students, and the other groups ALL ON THE SAME NIGHT!!! Also, (and I am not being self-defeatist or fishing for compliments in saying this), but I am the weakest actress in the class. Well, maybe not the weakest, but one of them, certainly. So it only makes sense to give it up next year. It will be a wrench to do so, because acting has been the one subject consistent throughout my life, doing it in and out of school. I do enjoy it, and I did origionally plan to do a drama-based course at uni. But now it's got to the point where the teachers are ever-so-subtly hinting i may not be such a good actress after all. Oh well. I'm still proud of my A at gcse, and at least it means this time will be the last time I will suffer the "Oh fuck, I'm on stage in five minutes!" terror. Plus, drama as a subject can be a real hassle. People seem to think it's this easy, doss subject. It's not. Theres all the stress of constantly rearranging scripts, sorting constant after school rehersals, the tears when people are chucked off the course for not turning up to said rehersals, rearranging everything now that said person has been thrown off the course, etc etc. Obviously, all exams/subjects are stressful, an I am in no way suggesting that drama is more difficult than any other subject, but its just.... argh. I'm scared. And my costume is really hot and uncomfortable. *sulks*
Christ, how did it come around so quickly? I am so dropping it next year, theres no way any subject should be worth so much bloody scary nervousness. It wouldn't be so bad if it was one performance to the examinor and a separate one for friends and family, like it was with the gcse pieces, but this time, we're performing to the examiner, families, friends, school govenors, drama teachers, upper sixth drama students, and the other groups ALL ON THE SAME NIGHT!!! Also, (and I am not being self-defeatist or fishing for compliments in saying this), but I am the weakest actress in the class. Well, maybe not the weakest, but one of them, certainly. So it only makes sense to give it up next year. It will be a wrench to do so, because acting has been the one subject consistent throughout my life, doing it in and out of school. I do enjoy it, and I did origionally plan to do a drama-based course at uni. But now it's got to the point where the teachers are ever-so-subtly hinting i may not be such a good actress after all. Oh well. I'm still proud of my A at gcse, and at least it means this time will be the last time I will suffer the "Oh fuck, I'm on stage in five minutes!" terror. Plus, drama as a subject can be a real hassle. People seem to think it's this easy, doss subject. It's not. Theres all the stress of constantly rearranging scripts, sorting constant after school rehersals, the tears when people are chucked off the course for not turning up to said rehersals, rearranging everything now that said person has been thrown off the course, etc etc. Obviously, all exams/subjects are stressful, an I am in no way suggesting that drama is more difficult than any other subject, but its just.... argh. I'm scared. And my costume is really hot and uncomfortable. *sulks*
