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I wish wish wish I could articualte my inner feelings better. Sometimes people say things to me and I don't know how to react properlystrieght away and I think the other person then thinks, 'oh, I shouldn't have said that, now she thinks Im strange', when infact quite the opposite is true. Othertimes I find out stuff about people which I can so so so relate to, but they don't know that i can (and sometimes they don't even know that I know the stuff about them in the first place) and in both senarios, I just want to reach down inside me, grab all my inner thoughts and faults and feelings, and splat them down on the floor infront of me, so the other person can see them and i can say, 'Look! My feelings are the same as yours! I know what your talking about! I'm just like you'

Sigh. But life doesn't function like on a too regular basis, does it?

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Oh Christ Oh Christ oh Christ.

 

I can feel hurt on the horizon.

 

Please, let my feelings be wrong about that.

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Oh God

That horizon seems to be rapidly moving closer

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Oh God, I feel like Im nearly in tears, and Im not 100% sure why.

Why do things have to be so complicated?

I've also broken the promise I made with myslef about going to bed at a sensible time. So I apologise to everyone who has to deal with my super tired self tomorrow, especially Emma.





God, I knew I was too tired to deal with this tonight. But no, that didn't stop me, did it??? Stupid stupid stupid.