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Nov. 9th, 2006 01:21 pmOk, there seems to be some slight confusion over what is actually wrong with me. I would just like to say right now that I am NOT anorexic. Yes, I have lost wieght recently (though it's impossible to know how much since I don't have scales here), but thats only because I've been feeling so ill. Anorexia is when you deliberately starve yourself and limit your intake as a form of control. Whereas with me, I am trying to eat, I just physically can't. My relationship with food is oterwise fine (I admit I can be too lazy to cook sometimes, but I don't think thats anything to worry about). So, please, can everyone (including people who haven't even seen me for a couple of weeks and so have no idea what I currently wiegh- *cough*Joe*cough*) stop telling me I have an eating disorder? I appreaciate your concern, but I find it very upsetting, and its probably a bit insulting to those who really do have a genuine eating disorder. If anyone still disagrees with me then they are welcome to tell me their reasons why, but I'm pretty certain you'll be wrong. Just to reiterate, I really do appreciate that your concerned about me, I just don't think it's that necessary.
Im other news, I feel slightly better this morning. Last night was horrible, I felt so weak I was literally struggling to lift my head off the pillow. My erratic (I woke up at quarter to four this morning, oh joy) sleep was punctuated by strange dreams of my house mates screaming and people coming into my room and telling me it was four o clock in the afternoon. When I got up this morning, I was sweating so much that even my hair stinks (eurrrrgh). But I manged to eat a whole bowl of breakfast cereal witout any trouble, whcih I tink is more than i've eaten over the past three days put together, so thats defantely a turn up for the books. I've already missed two seminars today, but I emailed both tutors last night, so hopefully they'll be understanding. Later on today I am going to go to the doctors, and Im also going to email student support to try and get an appointment so I explain how I've been feeling so ill and depressed and generally rubbish recently that I've been struggling to keep up with work. Argh, I really hope I don't fail my course, though i admit its looking increasingly likely. my parents will be so horribly disapointed. Ireally hope everything doesn't fall apart. Some one come and visit me soon, please.
Im other news, I feel slightly better this morning. Last night was horrible, I felt so weak I was literally struggling to lift my head off the pillow. My erratic (I woke up at quarter to four this morning, oh joy) sleep was punctuated by strange dreams of my house mates screaming and people coming into my room and telling me it was four o clock in the afternoon. When I got up this morning, I was sweating so much that even my hair stinks (eurrrrgh). But I manged to eat a whole bowl of breakfast cereal witout any trouble, whcih I tink is more than i've eaten over the past three days put together, so thats defantely a turn up for the books. I've already missed two seminars today, but I emailed both tutors last night, so hopefully they'll be understanding. Later on today I am going to go to the doctors, and Im also going to email student support to try and get an appointment so I explain how I've been feeling so ill and depressed and generally rubbish recently that I've been struggling to keep up with work. Argh, I really hope I don't fail my course, though i admit its looking increasingly likely. my parents will be so horribly disapointed. Ireally hope everything doesn't fall apart. Some one come and visit me soon, please.
