Drive

I'm feeling slightly better since I came off prozac, more in control, more feeling again. But still, I lack the confidence to do anything. My lofe is littered with half-started "creative projects" that I haven't had the confidence and the guts and the motivation to carry on beyonde the first few failed attempts. So, I am hoping that if I write some goals down here, being able to read them (and knowing that other people can do the same), it might push me that vital bit further.

Goal 1: Become a dominatrix (if only for a little while).
it's going to take a while, this one, but I'm starting to make the right contacts (I hope so, anyway), and now I just need to keep in touch with them. Someone once told me I was too much of a softy to be a good domme, and I want to prove him wrong. I am a softy, I'll admit, but I'm a good actress, too, and I reckon I could have at least a good go at it.

Goal 2: Get a job.
Not any job though. I want to work as a carer in the priory or at an old people's home. I just need to summon up the courage to send emails...



That's enough to be getting on with for now, I tihnk. I have plenty more goals of course, mainly based around making/creating things, but lets take it one step at a time...