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Aug. 15th, 2004 05:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
retro_geekmumblemumblegrrfuckingparentstakingmeonholidaytoplacesidontevenwanttogotomumblefuckingfriendsgoingonfuckingholidaysfuckingparents(again)moping/moaning/shoutingenoughformetoknowthatsomethingisSERIOUSLYwrongbutrefusingtotellmeexactlywhatmutterfuckinggcsesiknowivefailedatleastoneenglishpaperwhichmeansmyparentswillmoan/mope/shoutevenmorefuckingcounsellorgoingonfuckingmaternetyleavefuckingnewonequitefranklygettingonmywickfuckingtonyblairmerrilytakingustowaranduppingourchancesofaterroristattackmeaningicantevensleepatnightcosimsoscaredparticulalywithpeopleicareaboutregularlyusingthetubesystem/goingintocentrallondonnotthaticouldsleepbeforethankstofuckingfatherfuckingupmygeneticstomakemeadepressedinsomiacfuckwontyoujustlistentomegoingonimsopathetictypingallthisshitabouthowterriblemylifeiswhenprobaablyeveryoneiknowisgoingthroughsimilarifnotworseexperiencesemmaaskedinherlastentry"whatarewetryingtorunawayfrom?"andsaidthatshedidntunderstandselfdestructiveteenagerswhofeeltheneedtopunishthemselveswelltobehonestidontknowwhatimrunningfromanymoreandidontknowwhyifeeltheneedtopunishmyselfexceptifeelthatideserveitforbeingsopatheticandupsetovermylifewheniknowthattherearepeopleouttherewhoselivesaresomuchworsethanmineeveryonekeepstellingmetocheerupandappriciatelifebutijustcantanymoreivebeentryingforsolongbutitsallinvaintobehonestidontknowwhyijustdontenditallnowthishasallbeengoingonforsolongthatidontfeelicancopeformuchlongerimsunremyfriendsareallgettingsickofmebeingquietandmiserableallthetimeandidontblamethemtheonlyreasonwhyivenotkilledmyselfsofarisbecauseofhowitwouldaffectmyfriendsandfamilybutimreallynotsurehowmuchlongericancarryoneverythingjustseemsso,sopointlessimsoworthlessimsorryeveryone
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Date: 2004-08-23 10:47 am (UTC)