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Sep. 12th, 2005 12:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
retro_geekMarrrrrrrrrrrrrgh. Missed Media for the second time in a row this morning. Wouldn't be so bad normally (Mr Royden's lessons tend to be 10-15% useful learning stuff and 85-90% wittering about nothing in particular), but he's doing our predicted grades this week, so missing two lessons probably wasn't the most sensible ting in the world. But I was just feeling so shit after what happened this morning (and so very VERY tired- insomnia strikes again), that I just couldnt face going in so early. Particularly as my media class contains the people who I was ranting about a few entries ago, and who are still cheerfully oblivious to quite how much they've wrecked my studies.
Oh, Why am I such a bloody fuck-up? Always, always, always, I can never seem to do anything right. And its always the people who I care about most who I seem to piss off. Please, I dont know whether its my fault or thiers (probably a bit of both), but this is doing my head in. If you value something, why would you let it slip away so easily? Am I really that disposeable? Well, yes, I probably am, actuallly. Maybe I should just hide my self away until I've developed some kind of redeeming quality. Until Im somewhere near loveable again. If I was ever to start off with.
Arrgh, shut up, Soph. SHUT UP
Oh, Why am I such a bloody fuck-up? Always, always, always, I can never seem to do anything right. And its always the people who I care about most who I seem to piss off. Please, I dont know whether its my fault or thiers (probably a bit of both), but this is doing my head in. If you value something, why would you let it slip away so easily? Am I really that disposeable? Well, yes, I probably am, actuallly. Maybe I should just hide my self away until I've developed some kind of redeeming quality. Until Im somewhere near loveable again. If I was ever to start off with.
Arrgh, shut up, Soph. SHUT UP
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Date: 2005-09-12 02:03 pm (UTC)if you haven't already tried this,eat a boiled onion at bedtime for insomnia....
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Date: 2005-09-12 02:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-09-13 06:08 pm (UTC)All appears to be well for mobile clubbing, though methinks I will have to meet you down there, must do college stuff and don't think I'll have time to double back....
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Date: 2005-09-13 06:18 pm (UTC)U iz Bo, innit? We lv U!
But seriously Soph, you're letting the pretty unacceptable behaviour of someone else get to you. Stuff her! (Literally. *In jewish accent* My cousin is a Taxidermist, you know...)
*hug*
The qualities you posess are what making you get all these nice comments. You know why?