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[retro_geek]

as promised, here is some explanation as to why i was feeling so up and down during yesterday's journal entery-ing...

1 depressed parent + another depressed parent + 1 depressed teenager= general depressivness allround.



And you know what hurts the most?

"Sophia, your dads going to sink in to a glooming depression again, and its ALL BECAUSE OF YOU"




Why does everything have to be my fault? Emma always used to get annoyed at me for "apologiseing for my existence", but right now, i Am sorry i existed. Sometimes i dont feel like i deserve to live.

im so sorry




i need to talk to someone...

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I feel so annoyed....me going on about how I fucking hate Monday's

[butterfly-toast.livejournal.com]

Why did you tell me?
I'm here......*stands flapping my arms*....I'm here.
I'm always here for anyone.

I tell people so many things about me and most of the time...it never makes sense. I just blah blah blah on about a load of crap and you're there, here....around somewhere.....and you're pouring your heart out to everyone.

First of all, nothing is anybody's fault. Shit Happens. Everyone should leanr that. Maybe stickers and massive banner in are order but....it's the fucking truth and don't I know it. People tell self all the time that something is my fault and this/that and the fucking other is my faylt.....so you're not alone.

Who's Emma btw? Never heard of her before unless it's Emma from school. I know a few Emma's though. Oh dear.

What have you possibley done to deserve that quotation from somebody that cares for you. I'm guessing that was from the mother...but it might be emma????

Anyway, you/we are going to have a 'get together' in our usual careers room and we'll have a talk, ok?


Carolyn

Remember....we all love you! X

*huggles*

[daemon-akm.livejournal.com]

Hey Soph,
Parents are hard creatures to deal with- they're wrapped with their own insecurities and doubts and depressions.

People also pass blame (even if the problem is completely unrelated to the person the blame is being passed to) as is the case here.

Their problems are not your fault and you should not take responsibility; you can support them when they go thorough a difficult phase (as they should with you), but feeling guilty for breaking a glass you never touched?.

*hug* We here for you Soph blud-bredrin-breadbin-blud.

Come round for a hot chocolate and a hair dye some time.

*Emma*